February 18, 2014

Change

Today is the first day of Jim's new shift at work.  Except for a short time before we had kids (Hillary will be 30 next month), he has worked steady days.  His company closed in December, but he was one of the fortunate few to be offered a job with their sister company, but knowing that he would have to eventually work steady afternoons.  For now, it is 12 noon - 8:30pm.  That could change to a 2:30 - 11:00 shift if they get busier.  We only have one vehicle, so I feel a little stuck sometimes.  I can take the bus if I really need to, or walk.  It's good that my mom lives only about 2 km away, so that is actually a nice distance (once the sidewalks are clear of all this darned snow). 

I am going to have to make sure that I eat properly.  I can tend to graze a lot if I am home alone.  If I do some planning, knowing that Jim will need meals to take to work for his supper, that will be a bit more of an incentive.  I just cooked a spaghetti squash and am waiting for it to cool a bit before I shred it.  I will brown some ground beef and mix it all together with some salsa.  He likes that and it will be enough for a few days.

I've been doing some stress eating recently and need to get it in check.  We did get the treadmill moved out of the corner of the basement yesterday, and the home gym and stationary bicycle.  I really have no excuses! 

Tomorrow will be a hectic day.  I am anxious, as Josh has his appointment with the Ear Nose Throat surgeon/oncologist in Hamilton.  We are all scared, but it will be good to have some information about what will happen and what to expect as far as surgery/treatments. 

While I was doing the dishes and thinking about going to Hamilton tomorrow, I thought about  another change in my life.  I guess there comes a time when a mother becomes the second-most important woman in a man's life.  I wondered if Josh really wants me to go in with him to see the doctor.  His girlfriend Sharon will be going as well.  I am so glad that she came into his life.  She is a sweet girl and they are very good together.  And although he will always be my child, she is becoming the one he will turn to for comfort, and rightly so.  Jim and I are still a part of his support in any way that we can be, as well as his many aunts, uncles, cousins and friends.  Josh assured me that it is ok.  If all three of us are there, more information will be absorbed.  Sharon is a RPN and has a list of questions and I think we will record the conversation so we can play it back later.

Yesterday was Family Day in Ontario, and we went down to Crystal Beach to see the ice caves.  This is a phenomenon that has happened because of the cold winter.  The traffic was crazy on the main road into Crystal Beach, so Jim took a side street over to another route in and we found a parking spot on a street a few blocks from the beach.  It was beautiful, but cold.


Josh and Jim with Maggie, Sharon's dog.


Josh, Sharon and Maggie.  She didn't like it in the hole!


Jim and me


Ice cave
 
 
The beach.  There were probably almost as many people as a nice day in the summer! 
 
I have seen a few jobs on the Job Bank that look kind of interesting.  It would mean having to get another car, but I guess we will cross that bridge when we get to it.  I've got enough on my mind right now!  

February 13, 2014

Helpless

Not a post about diabetes or running, but just feeling so helpless.  There is nothing worse, as a parent, than seeing your child hurting. 

Our son was diagnosed with thyroid cancer on Monday.  He is a grown man, 27 years old.  Last night, he came to our house and simply said, "I just need a hug" and sobbed on my shoulder.  He was in excruciating pain, unlike anything he has ever experienced.  I cried a bit and wondered why I couldn't cry more.  I guess I was just trying to stay strong for him because later, after we were in bed, the tears started to flow and wouldn't stop.  Then I just had to punch something, so I took it out on the mattress.  I feel like, as a mother, I should protect my child, no matter how old he is, but I can't.  All I can do is support him and let him know we will be there for him any time of day or night.  I can give him that shoulder to cry on and hold his hand. 

It is going to be a long, hard road, but I know we will get through this.  I, and his girlfriend's mom, have put out requests to friends and churches to pray for him and I know there are hundreds, possibly thousands of people who will hear about him.  We need to leave this in God's hands.

So we will take this one day at a time.

February 6, 2014

Happy Planet

This is my first attempt at using the Blogger app on my phone. 

I saw my endocrinologist on Monday. I was down a few pounds but my A1c was up a bit. It was 7.4%, up from 7.3% in October. A lot better than the 9.8% a couple years ago, but still lots to work on. 

We bought this soup at Costco last week. Maybe a little expensive if you are comparing it to the canned stuff that goes on sale for 99 cents but you can't compare apples to oranges. It is around $8.00 for two pouches but we got the tomato on sale for under $6.00. There are no unpronounceable ingredients.  It is in the refrigerated section and the expiry date is just around a month. Both are delicious, with tons of flavour. I don't like a lot of heat when it comes to spices, but the Thai one was fine for me.


I'm working on tweaking my resume and getting some out. I would like to go back to school to upgrade my skills but will have to see if I qualify for funding. 

I haven't been doing anything on the exercise front and it bothers me. I know I need to get moving on that.   It will come.